Matthew 5:8 "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God."
I don't even know where to start. haha
Some of the events in my life this past week have been SO life changing for me! God has ways of making His glory SHINE that I can not even comprehend!
I was having a really hard time with a situation going on in my life.. I was trying not to have a crush on this guy, haha and I didn't see anything wrong with having a crush on him at all because he is a good guy, totally godly and very sweet and smart, someone I would marry for sure, haha but I didn't know what to think. I had never had to deal with something like that before and I didn't know what to do at all! All I knew is that I am so not ready for a relationship right now in my life! haha the wondering what was right to think and what was wrong to think was totally and completely consuming my thoughts! I knew that was a huge problem!
after like a week of just totally not knowing what to think, I just wanted to be single for the rest of my life!!! haha I wanted my feelings to just go away! I wanted God to be the center of my life and the only thing on my mind!!! Why was it so hard to just forget about the guy and move on with my life serving Jesus with my every breath instead of thinking about what could be!?!?!?
I started praying about it a lot more than I was before... and just asking God to please take away the distractions of stuff like that in my life so that I could see Him and keep my eyes on Him!! I was telling Him that I don't know what to think and I need Him to help me!
Our God is so faithful.
The next day I came to check out if anyone had posted on their blogs. (All of you writers are so amazing and such an encouragement to me!!)Turns out that I had some comments on my last post.(Check out the comments to see the amazing blogs of other Young girls who are striving for Jesus and SHINING!!! haha)These girls had no idea what I was going through at all... and God totally put them in my life RIGHT when I needed them! They just randomly told me to check out their blogs on purity.
OH. my. goodness. haha That is EXACTLY what I needed to hear!!! Of course I knew that staying pure and waiting meant not doing anything physical until marriage, and I had convictions in my heart not to date, and I wear a purity ring! haha but it totally hit me that the commitment that we have made to God to stay pure means more then just our bodies, but our HEARTS, our MIND, and our SOUL! When we say we are going to wait, we are saying that we are going to guard our hearts and not even THINK about crushes... even if they guy is awesome and could totally be our future husband... only God knows right now who that is going to be for each of us. We need to not give our hearts away to just anyone... and we NEED to dedicate our lives to God!!!
I could go on and on and on and into detail of what all this means to me now!! And how I have this whole new way to serve God in my life by staying pure and willing only one thing, Jesus Christ! the bible says, "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God." Pure can also mean that we focus entirely on only one thing, we give our whole lives to God and strive to make Him #1!!
God has really helped me to focus on Him these past couple of days and my eyes have been opened to His beauty in ways I can't even describe!! I feel free from worry and I have peace about everything!! The crush feeling totally went away! haha I see His Grace pouring out into my life through people and just the way that situations are being worked out perfectly and especially though Jesus work on the cross for our sins!! Gods word is truth!! I encourage you to pray to Him and give Him your whole life!!! Every situation that is going on, every thought, confess every sin, remember Jesus! haha God blesses us when we come to Him! Its ALL His grace alone that we are able to see this! and His grace ALONE that we want our lives to be for Him! We serve an AMAZING God! I praise Him and thank Him so much for you girls who have encouraged me! I hope this post can be an encouragement to you! haha He is awesome and worthy of worship and praise!!! <3 <3 <3
God bless!
-Val
wow valerie! that was an awesome post and I am so encouraged by what God showed you this week. I am so blessed to hear that my purity blog blessed you! To God be all of the glory!!
ReplyDeleteHope you have a wonderful weekend and know that I am praying for you.
Jesus Hugs!
Lexi
Wow Valerie!! It is so neat to have found your blog... we are a LOT a like :) I've been struggling with the *exact* same thing.. I know how hard it is... and *exactly* *EXACTLY* what you are going through! Keep Fighting. You will make it through this battle! I've found it really neat to pray for him... and although he is like a real brother to me and I love him to death in that sense, I have seen how easy it is to love him a little more than a brother. It's been something that I've been fighting and it's not an easy, tackle, "I did it" battle. :) You're not alone!
ReplyDeleteI posted a poem on my blog called "Wait"... it is another thing that is beautifully written... that you might also find encouraging... Here it is here: http://generationstandup.blogspot.com/
Have a blessed week sister in Christ!