"The key to holiness is falling in love with Jesus"

This quote really hit me today!
The other day.. I was at a friends house and her mom was doing laundry, so I asked if she needed any help. She just stopped and looked at me and almost started crying because the question was so sweet to her.. and she asked me why I asked her that.. to be honest the first thing that came to my mind was not "because I am obsessed with Jesus." it was "because I wanted to be loving." I guess it can be the same thing.. if your heart is in the right place.. haha but for me I honestly just wanted her to know i was a nice person. I thought about this for like two days, and its still stuck in my head even today because, shouldn't we be living in such a way that people will know that GOD is a nice God? Shouldn't we be living in a way that people will feel and see HIS love and not something that comes from us?

I want to be obsessed with Jesus.
To the point where I do what He asks me without even thinking about it.. and because He is whats most important. I realize sometimes that I hardly know WHAT He asks of me at all.. I should know this! haha I should spend time learning it! so many other things I put my time into.. its seriously absurd! FOR EXAMPLE, I can recite every line to the movie "Aquamarine" because I have seen it so many times (for some reason I love that movie.. I know it's weird.. but its true. haha) But i can't recite every line to Romans 12 or 1 Corinthians 13 or Hebrews 12 because I haven't spent my time reading these important passages over and over and OVER...

I've traded God for ashes.

God has created PASSION in me.. I want every ounce of it to be used for Him alone. I want HIM to be my love and my life...
There is a song I got on a CD for Christmas this year.. and it's PERFECT for my heart right now.. the lyrics in the chorus say:

"Now that I see You I know
Your love commands my soul.
Now that I know You I see
There's no one else for me..
there's no one else for me."

and then it says "Open Our eyes! Open our eyes!" over and over and over.

There truly is no one else for me. no one else will do. NO ONE else can command my SOUL with their LOVE when I see them!!
I just want Jesus!!!
I just.. want.. Jesus.

Be RADIANT Lord Jesus. I want to seam you beam off of everything and everyone. I want to see the light defeat the dark..

Heavy.

ever feel like the silence rings in your ears?
ever feel like no words arouse more fears?
ever feel like wondering is worse than knowing?
ever feel like staying is harder than going?

ever feel like the weight wont even matter?
ever feel like being clueless makes your heart shatter?
ever feel like what you want just must be wrong?
ever feel like your heart ache doesn't belong?

ever feel like you want them to understand you care?
ever feel like they don't want to because they are scared?
ever feel like they should tell you since they've labeled you the "best"?
ever feel like you should just understand and let go of all the rest?

ever feel like "God's got it, i don't need to worry."?
ever feel like there's still a need to hurry?
ever feel like there is good reasons behind their protective walls?
ever feel like they're just up to block out their desperate calls?

ever feel like you're thinking about everything way too much?
ever feel like you should just be there as their crutch?
ever feel like calming down because you are there for them already?
ever feel like exploding because your heart is so heavy?

let me tell you that at the times when you do feel like this, put your hope in the Lord and your joy in His kiss...

this poem might not make sense to anyone.. but I know my savior understands every little detail. and maybe if you understand what I mean you could be encouraged that someone feels the way you do. and that you are never alone.

I set my eyes on You, confident You will come to my rescue.

"Long walks in the dark through woods grown behind the park, I asked God who I'm supposed to be. The stars smiled down on me, God answered in silent reverie. I said a prayer and fell asleep."

-Priscilla Ahn

Romans 12:11

"Do not be lazy. Be fervent in spirit and serve the Lord..."

the definition of fervent is: Having or displaying a passionate intensity; hot, burning, glowing.

Sweet Heavenly King... please make my spirit fervent for You alone.

I will not take my Love away.

I will not take my love away
when praises cease and seasons change
while the whole world turns the other way
I will not take my love away.
I will not leave you all alone
when striving leads you far from home
and there's no yeild for what you've sown
I will not leave you all alone.
I will give you what you need
in plenty or in poverty
forever, always, look to me
and I will give you what you need.
I will not take my love away.
--love, Jesus

BE SET FREE...

these words never fail to soothe my soul.. Its like God is whispering them personally to my heart.. like.. " what are you doing, val? look no further.. look to me alone, and be. set. free."
Thank YOU my sweet loving heavenly Father.. for taking my burdens and my sin... and setting me free.

SMILE. Being happy repels satan. BEAM with the light from Jesus and worship HIM even through hard times... by just.. smiling.. <3















Photo by my best friend Phoebe.

I just want to run to YOU and break off these chains and throw them away..