my best friend took this picture. <3
I'm not totally sure why... but this picture comforts me so much.

P.S. i love my best friend.

Last day of school. wow..

I can't even really believe I'm graduating. I still feel so young. haha
It has been awesome though. I absolutely loved being home schooled! I am so thankful for everyone I got to meet and everything I got to experience! God is awesome. He got me through it.

I'M SO STOKED TO BE DONE! haha

2 Corinthians 5:17

This is so how I feel right now.

This week I was so lost and hurt and just trying to fight.. but then I God broke me.. and I let go.. and I got my bible and started reading about Jesus and everything He said and did.. I wanted to know what HE wanted. God was SO faithful to show me exactly what I needed to hear! He showed me that it is all about following Jesus. I'm supposed to just dump the world and follow Him. I've been holding on to this world so tightly! I've been CRAZY. oh my goodness.. I'm so sorry, Lord..
I have a whole new passion now. I trust Him.. I trust Him so much with my life!

There is this verse that I can't stop thinking about! It says "Lift up your eyes on high And see who has created these stars, The One who leads forth their host by number, He calls them all by name; Because of the greatness of His might and the strength of His power, Not one of them is missing." Isaiah 40:26
I am so awed by this verse. So humbled. sheesh... so humbled. I love it! God is so comforting. I have no reason not to trust Him. He says "For I know the plans I have for you; plans for good and not for evil, plans to give you a hope and a future."Jeremiah 29:11
I want to follow Him!! I want to be just like Jesus! He is the sweetest thing ever! I want to SERVE God with my life. He is so holy and worthy of praise!!

Following Jesus has a whole new meaning to me now. It's not about me at all. It's about Him. It's about bringing God praise and glory. Letting go of what I want or what I think and holding on to Him and what He wants and what He thinks. That is the only thing that matters. His love is CHANGING me.

The more I learn about Jesus and put my trust in Him, the more I feel like a completely different person. I don't even want what I wanted before! At all! I just want to serve Him! No matter what that means I have to give up. The old is GONE.. and the new has come. What an amazing thing. Thank You Lord Jesus! You are so wonderful!

I want to Love others with the Love He has shown me, so that they might look to Him and know of His awesomeness. That is all. I just want to serve.

Blessed be my Rock and let the God of my salvation be exalted. Psalm 18:46

Hebrews 10:23

"Let us hold tightly without wavering to the hope we affirm, for God can be trusted to keep his promise"

Break me, Lord

Just break me and rebuild me the way You want me. I want to die to all of my desires, and be reborn to all of Yours.

Psalm 143:9

Psalm 46:1-3,10

¹ God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble.
² Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
³ though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging...

10“Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth.”

BarlowGirl - Beautiful Ending

This is so my heart today..

Peace

This... This is what I feel inside my heart when I close my eyes.
I will praise Him in this storm... because HE is my refuge.. and my strength.

"Cause I don’t need to see it to believe it
I don’t need to see it to believe it
Cause I can’t shake this fire burning
Deep inside my heart

This life is Yours and hope is rising
As Your glory floods our hearts
Let love tear down these walls
That all creation would
Come back to You
It’s all for You

Your Name is glorious
Glorious
Your love is changing us
Calling us
To worship in spirit and in truth
As all creation returns to You"

-Tear down the walls, Hillsong United

Hillsong United - You Hold Me Now (Lyrics)

The truth in this song.. is getting me through this day. Thank You Lord. <3 love You.

okkkk.

I am so happy.

for no other reason than.. God is my joy. He is.. everything.
life is hard, but He is the lifter of my head. I can fully surrender and throw myself into FULL dependance on Him knowing that He will never let me down.

so now when things come into my life that are hard, and heart-breaking, and confusing, i am still ok. I can look to my Father and best friend and savior.. and know that it is going to be ok!! haha I feel like "ohhhhhh i get it nowwwwww.. like with how idolizing things makes a wall between me and God.. but when i let go of this worlddd.. I have only Him.. and He is always enough.." but then i know that He is SO MUCH MORE even then that awesomeness.. that I will always have more to learn about Him.. and that His wonders will never cease. and that gives me passion. passion to BRING PRAISE. To shout the good news from the roof tops! I just want to testify of His amazing Love.. because it is truley amazing. i am so.. amazed. <3

so.. im ok. :)

Lock it up... . ..NOT!

“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.”
--C.S. Lewis

This quote reminds me how important it is to pick a side. To be hot or cold. When we cease to worship when life gets hard, satan will pull and pull and pull and PULL on us to lock up our hearts so that we do not get hurt again. he wants us to use this world to distract and entertain us, he wants us to think of only ourselves. But this... this will turn our hearts to stone. unresponsive to Gods voice, to His love.. we simply won't trust Him.. we won't love Him, When He is the only one worthy of love.. do not be conformed to this world..it will harden your heart. pick a side. this is war.


Lord, take my heart.. don't let me lock it up away from you. No matter how hard this life gets, no matter how painful the heart break, let me always come to You alone. To be restored, to be awakened from death, because You are the only one who cares enough to redeem and fix my broken heart...to bring me to life again... and all because of Your grace. Nothing can compare, Lord.. take all of my love... my whole heart...