Strong

So I've been learning about Gods promises lately. How they are true.. and how God keeps them. always. I understand this and I believe it more than ever before.

I look back on my life and all the things that I have gone through in my life, all the things that God has brought me through. There were times when I was scared and I prayed for comfort and I got it! There were times when I was afraid of pain and prayed for help and God had me fall asleep or pass out. I was always in His hands.. just as He says "I will never leave you or forsake you." He kept this promise. time after time after time, and He always will keep His promises. I look back and see that everything that I thought I could never get through, I got through, because of Him! Because He knows the plans He has for me, because all things work together for good for those who love Him, because He cares. I realized how FAITHFUL God is when I just sat at the beach and thought about this. If He brings you to it He will bring you through it. That is some hard core truth right there. I never have a reason to doubt His faithfulness and His amazing plan for me. No matter how hard it gets. One verse that I have been stuck on this week is

Philippians 4:13 " I can do all things through Him who gives me strength."

One thing that people tell me all the time to encourage me is "you are so strong. to go through this intense pain every day and still smile.. you are just so strong." and I always think "well I don't feel strong! you shoulda seen me last night! I was crying and cryinggggg and then I was too tired to even pray anymore.. I'm so weak. " but then I realized that I am not weak.. I am dependant.. I am dependant on God to be my strength.. and the strength that people see in me is NOT MY OWN, It is the strength of Jesus! It is ok that I am weak! It's actually a beautiful thing because I know that I need Him to be my strength! and He will be!!! He says I can do all things through Him.. and that He is the one who is going to be the strength for me.

So, I've been applying this to my life. Usually, when my pain would get super intense, I would go into "out of it" mode. "I can't possibly talk to anyone right now, I can't possibly readdddd my bible, or do my school, or make dinner, or clean my room, or go to that party, or encourage someone, or be nice to my sister.... its just too much pain... I can hardly even breathe.." But now that I UNDERSTAND that this is actually true, that I can NOT POSSIBLY do these things without God, I haven't gotten depressed and figured that I failed and that there is no hope. NO! by the grace of God, no. instead I've been asking for Him to come and give me strength, because I can not do it alone. IT IS POSSIBLE to do EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING with Him. That is a promise. doesn't matter how hard it is. it is still possible. I trust God in this. This is how He doesn't give us anything we can't handle.. its the fact that we need Him to handle it for us.. and when He is does (and OH HE WILL!!!) we see His love more and more! Then we love Him more and more! And then its going to get harder and more intense trials and we will know that all we have to do is ask.. and he will give us the strength and courage and peace to get through it. guys.... the more you surrender to Him.. the easier it gets.

"Hope does not disappoint, because the Love of God has been poured out into our hearts through the holy spirit that has been given to us." Romans 5:5

Hope. This is what I have. I trust in God. That He is good, and He is loving, and He knows what He is doing!
Thy will be done, Father... I know Your grace is sufficient for me.