You are more, You are more than my words will ever say!

God knows what He is doing. He knows. I trust Him with my life! I know he is holding me! I know He has a plan for me! I know He will work all things together for good! I know He never does anything to hurt me! I know that no trial is ever wasted! I know that He is enough! He is enough! Enough for me. Always. No matter what.

I am still suffering so much from my nerve damage pain. I am literally shaking today. I feel like I am going to throw up, or cry, or pass out. I am so done laying around though. It hasn't been helping. I have been praying so much and asking God what He wants me to do with myself while I go through this and what I can do to serve Him the most! I really feel like He is calling me to be strong in the strength of His might! Not to be strong because I am, but because HE is.

I feel like I have leaned this before in the past two years I have been going through this pain.. but my pain is at a whole new level now, and it really doesn't seem possible to be strong and get through every day smiling... but God is making it happen. He has put SO MUCH JOY in my heart! I can't eve explain how much I love Him!! I love Him so much!! Because of HIM I am choosing to get up and keep going. To press on. To surrender my life and let Him work through me. He is God and I am not! I know that He knows best.

I am so tired of feeling so awful all the time, and yet so stoked to see how God is going to use this to further His kingdom or maybe just draw my heart closer to His.

I can still say, after 27 months of non-stop pain, that our God is LOVE... and He is always good. So worthy of praise. SO worthy. I have no reason to be unhappy! He has saved me so that I can have hope(and I have SO much hope!)in Him!

I don't even have words to get my thoughts out right now. There is so much that I want to say. Jesus is everything to me. Absolutely everything! I just want to encourage whoever reads this, to always go to Him no matter what is going on in your life. Pour out your heart before Him because He is a refuge for you! He is the only one who will always be there for you. He is the only one who will always be enough and love you no matter what. My words can't even come close to covering how wonderful and worthy of praise He is.

I am so thankful, I am so joyful, I am so in love with Him. <333

Lord, please give me the strength to keep going. I can not do this alone. I need you every second. Your will be done!

Also, I dont even know where I would be without all the love and support of my friends and family and friends of friends and friends of family and EVERYONE! Everyone is so encouraging and so full of Gods love and it just blows me away that you all care so much. thank you thank you thank you!!!