Heavy.

ever feel like the silence rings in your ears?
ever feel like no words arouse more fears?
ever feel like wondering is worse than knowing?
ever feel like staying is harder than going?

ever feel like the weight wont even matter?
ever feel like being clueless makes your heart shatter?
ever feel like what you want just must be wrong?
ever feel like your heart ache doesn't belong?

ever feel like you want them to understand you care?
ever feel like they don't want to because they are scared?
ever feel like they should tell you since they've labeled you the "best"?
ever feel like you should just understand and let go of all the rest?

ever feel like "God's got it, i don't need to worry."?
ever feel like there's still a need to hurry?
ever feel like there is good reasons behind their protective walls?
ever feel like they're just up to block out their desperate calls?

ever feel like you're thinking about everything way too much?
ever feel like you should just be there as their crutch?
ever feel like calming down because you are there for them already?
ever feel like exploding because your heart is so heavy?

let me tell you that at the times when you do feel like this, put your hope in the Lord and your joy in His kiss...

this poem might not make sense to anyone.. but I know my savior understands every little detail. and maybe if you understand what I mean you could be encouraged that someone feels the way you do. and that you are never alone.