"The key to holiness is falling in love with Jesus"

This quote really hit me today!
The other day.. I was at a friends house and her mom was doing laundry, so I asked if she needed any help. She just stopped and looked at me and almost started crying because the question was so sweet to her.. and she asked me why I asked her that.. to be honest the first thing that came to my mind was not "because I am obsessed with Jesus." it was "because I wanted to be loving." I guess it can be the same thing.. if your heart is in the right place.. haha but for me I honestly just wanted her to know i was a nice person. I thought about this for like two days, and its still stuck in my head even today because, shouldn't we be living in such a way that people will know that GOD is a nice God? Shouldn't we be living in a way that people will feel and see HIS love and not something that comes from us?

I want to be obsessed with Jesus.
To the point where I do what He asks me without even thinking about it.. and because He is whats most important. I realize sometimes that I hardly know WHAT He asks of me at all.. I should know this! haha I should spend time learning it! so many other things I put my time into.. its seriously absurd! FOR EXAMPLE, I can recite every line to the movie "Aquamarine" because I have seen it so many times (for some reason I love that movie.. I know it's weird.. but its true. haha) But i can't recite every line to Romans 12 or 1 Corinthians 13 or Hebrews 12 because I haven't spent my time reading these important passages over and over and OVER...

I've traded God for ashes.

God has created PASSION in me.. I want every ounce of it to be used for Him alone. I want HIM to be my love and my life...
There is a song I got on a CD for Christmas this year.. and it's PERFECT for my heart right now.. the lyrics in the chorus say:

"Now that I see You I know
Your love commands my soul.
Now that I know You I see
There's no one else for me..
there's no one else for me."

and then it says "Open Our eyes! Open our eyes!" over and over and over.

There truly is no one else for me. no one else will do. NO ONE else can command my SOUL with their LOVE when I see them!!
I just want Jesus!!!
I just.. want.. Jesus.