He cares.

Do you ever feel like you're the only person in the world who feels the way you do? Are you ever scared to tell someone your feelings, for fear of what they might think of you after? Do you try writing your feelings down on paper, but still don't feel satisfied? Well, I have come to realize that the only one who will listen and understand you is God. No matter how much you believe having an amazing friend here to tell all your problems to is awesome, the only one who truly cares about you is the one who created you.

I just had to get that out...

I have no idea why I get so upset all the time about things that don't even matter. I get so heart sick over everything. Then I feel overwhelmed and then I feel like I dont have anyone who actually wants to sit and listen to my temporary drama even though I really just need someone to dump it on. the feeling of having someone truly care sometimes is just such a comfort.

God cares.

He really does. He is my creator. He loves me so much more that I can picture love in my mind. He cares so much more than I could ever feel care for someone I love... and yet I look for more. Am I insane?!? I feel just so.. stupid... for ever looking anywhere else for comfort. I have been trying to fight the feelings of sadness and being overwhelmed and not feeling cared about for like a week now. Then every time I wanted desperately to talk to someone and there was no one who wanted to talk, those feelings just got so much stronger. So today I was like "Oh my goodness! snap out of this, Valerie! there is NO REASON to be so upset about everything." and I tried and I tried and I trieddddddddd to find something that would help my heart get in the right place. I prayed and cried out to God.. asking Him to move in my heart and get me out of this dry place of selfishness. Then I saw the verse "Cast every worry on Him, because He cares for you." God made it clear.

Even though I already know He cares, I wasnt acting like it.. I wasn't believeing that He is better than being able to talk to someone else. I feel like I learn this same thing all the time. I feel like a crazy person. I feel ashamed. I feel confused. I feel upset. I'm in pain. I want to keep crying. Im tried. Im passionate. I want to live for Him. I want to just be where He is!!!! .... and you know what?? HE CARES.
It doesnt matter who else cares. because He cares.

I am SURE... actually.. that I am not the only one who feels this way. So I will seek broken girls who need someone to just listen and cry with them!! and I will listen! and I will cry. Because we aren't alone in this fight. I don't want anyone to ever feel that way. God has so much compassion on us...

I pray right now Father, that you would work in me and ALL of my dear sisters who read this!! Lord give us Your heart of campassion for those around us who are suffering. Give us Your ears to listen and Your words and arms to comfort. Help us to live for You and not for ourselves! Help us to care for others in the way that You care for us, and let us always be comforted by Your sweet LOVE in every situation, big or small, knowing that every detail matters to you. In Jesus name, amen.