Life life life.

It has really been a fight this week. and the worst part is... I know what I need to think about and do to get out of being a mess, but I'm too exhausted to do it.

LORD I NEED YOU.

satan knows how to get to me. skdfglaiushdfk I feel lonely. Seems like so many people don't give a care in the world. they just don't think sometimes, and they say things that really hurt. i just cried about it. I'm venting here to confess that these things shouldn't bother me at all.. but I'm weak.. and hurt easily.

LORD I NEED YOU.

Things in my life are so good. I'm SO BLESSED... so why am i crying right now???
I'm overwhelmed. I want so badly to run to Jesus into His arms and hug Him with all my might! HE is what i want right now! I know He is the LOVE my heart longs for. to be accepted and cared about.. but I don't deserve it. I don't deserve to be cared for by the one who I disobey and HURT every day of my life. and yet I am loved. and seen as perfect. because of Him.

LORD I NEED YOU.

I want you God. I want to SERVE YOU. I want to LOVE YOU with all of my heart, soul, mind and strength. You are so good to me. I want to focus on YOU.

I am so thankful for God. This week I have seen Him as my shelter and peace in the war. somewhere i can go and completely forget about all the things that are tearing me apart. I can picture it in my mind like I'm in this crazy war and i find a cave and see Him in there and He HOLDS me as I shake, injured and worried and upset, until I am calm... and strong enough to go back out there and FIGHT for Him.

LORD I NEED YOU.

I really do not care what anyone thinks of me anymore. I am going to be myself and stand up for what I believe. no matter what happens. The only thing you can take to heaven with you is other believers. so I will LOVE on others, because I have been shown love from Christ.

HERE I AM.
LORD HELP ME TO LOVE.