I am so thankful for Bethany Hamilton today... I feel like God made me love the ocean so that I would go see her documentary when I was 14, That night completely changed my life. That is the night that I asked God to take my life and use me for His glory... because of the way she loves Him. She has always impacted me so much. when I read her book or watch her movie or documentary, I feel ON FIRE to live for God.. no matter what.
When I first hit my head I would watch her documentary every time I started feeling down about what happen to me... and God would always open my eyes to NEW things about Him through Bethany's life. I am so thankful for that girl. so thankful.
Today my shoulder has been hurting so much, from an injury last month, that I couldn't even use my arm for anything. I was cutting fruit by holding it with my feet and I was struggling to do a lot of things! haha THEN I decided to watch Soul Surfer,because I knew it would cheer me up, and I have NEVER cried so hard through a movie in my life... and Ive seen soul surfer at least 15 times already!!!! but today it impacted me SO HARD.
I was crying to the point where I couldn't breathe and I couldn't even figure out exactly what was impacting me... I prayed and asked God to show me why it was impacting me so much.. Then the part came on when she caught her first wave with one arm and I realized... I am crying because I am thankful that THAT is the way God works. He takes the horrible things and makes them AMAZING. I started praying out loud and telling God "THAT is who You are God!!! That is who You are!!!! You work all things together for GOOD and you have a plan to give me a future and a HOPE!!!!" He is going to use this pain in my life for something GOOD. I know that I can trust that He will. <3
GOD KNOWS. I am so thankful today that He knows!!!!! It has been so hard to hurt all the time.. it never gets easier and It is always getting harder... BUT GOD IS ALWAYS DRAWING ME CLOSER TO HIM THROUGH IT. He is so faithful.. I am never alone in this pain. God gives me so much hope! I have been prayng and asking God why I still have this pain...and He just shows me HOW AWESOME HE IS. hahaha I can't even explain it. I DO NOT HAVE A HANDICAP!!!!! no way... and you know why?? because my God is greater.. and through Him I can do all things. it does not matter how I am feeling... He is stronger and through Him I CAN DO ALL THINGS. nothing is impossible with God... He is so good.. even when there are no answers and when all seems lost and when I am hurting to the point of tears and brokenness... He is still taking care of me. and He is a solid rock that will never be shaken! Ever.
Today I am in so much pain and so broken but SO ON FIRE and SO STOKED to see what God has planned for me.
Take my life, Lord!!! I will still love You!! even to DEATH I will still love You!! <333
Amen! <3 you have no idea how much i look up to you <3
ReplyDeleteAMEN!! Love this post so much Valerie. You are such an inspiration and I'm so proud of you! Praying for you girly.
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See, if God can use Bethany Hamilton's tragic shark accident story to reach so many people (including yourself), just think about the amazing ways he's going to use you one day! It's all about remaining faithful to him during these testing seasons. Trusting that he'll bring you through it and that it'll all work together for your good and to bring glory to him in the end.
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