SUCH LOVE (the longest post ever. haha)

I am so amazed at the LOVE God has been pouring out on me lately.

It all started on good Friday... when God opened my eyes to how ungrateful I am for everything He has given me. I was praying a lot and asking God to give me direction for my life and telling Him that I wanted to know Him more and love Him more and more and more and more....

I was in church that day with three of the sweetest girls I will ever know in my life..(They have just RECENTLY come into my life and we have all been pouring out Gods love and spirit on one another like CRAZY! we were instant best friends and able to share anything and everything with each other and our prayers are always so full of tears of thankfulness for Gods amazing LOVE!) In church we were talking about how Jesus was murdered for us.. to save us.. and for the first time in a really long time this truth TOOK OVER MY HEART! and I was brought to tears of thankfulness... and as we all stood there, hand in hand, crying our hearts out, singing songs of thankfulness and praise, I realized HOW BLESSED WE ARE. Thank You God for surrounding me with people who LOVE YOU TO TEARS. I am so beyond blessed blessed blessed!!! thank You for saving my friends and my family and my boyfriend and my brothers and sisters in CHRIST!!!!! YOU ARE AN AMAZING GOD!!!! YOU are so GRACIOUS and LOVING and MERCIFUL. I could never deserve your love. I am so amazed..

I saw this quote and it said "what if the only things you had today... were the things you thanked God for yesterday." HIT ME SO HARD... I seriously would of had nothing the day I read that. This really impacted my heart and showed me that I am not being NEARLY as thankful as I should be! I asked God to open my eyes and make my heart thankful for EVERYTHING.. and I think I cried like the whole day just thanking God for everything He has given me. I NEVER ever ever ever ever have a reason to complain. If you feel down or stressed about something... just start thanking God for everything and everyone you have.. and I guarantee that it will change your whole day around.. because then you will see that OUR GOD IS GOOD. Even when things don't go the way we had hoped, He is still being GOOD and He is ALWAYS pouring out love on us!!!! ALWAYS. I am so amazed that I can't even breathe!!!!! I don't even know how to write the amazement that is in my heart!!! but I really want to encourage anyone who takes the time to read this to READ your bibles and SING praise songs and PRAY your heart out in thankfulness and tell God what you need. He is going to take care of you. He WILL show you how much He loves you.

In my time with God this week He has been really speaking to my heart... reading in a passage in Mark (middle of chapter 6 and beginning of chapter 8) about when He feeds the thousands of people, I just can't get over how He PROVIDES for their needs out of His COMPASSION for them. and He not only provides enough so that they are SATISFIED but He provides WAY MORE THAN THEY NEED.

God gives us more grace and mercy than needed. this is a big deal to me. Thank YOU GOD for Your beautiful LOVE. I just can not get over how You LOVE. it is amazing!! You are amazing!

another verse I cant get over is Mark 9:23 "If you can?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for one who believes."

NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE WITH JESUS. seriously we have everything we will ever need in Him. I can take on this head pain and this life KNOWING FOR SURE that when I believe in the power of Jesus and in His love and strength to get me through things.. He will get me through them. don't even think.. just KNOW.. all things are possible. this reminds me of an interview I saw of Bethany Hamilton after the shark attack but before she started surfing again.. and the interviewer asked her "do you think you are ever going to surf again?" and she answers "I think?! I know.. I know I'm going to surf again" and SHE DID. because she believed in the word of the LORD.skdjfh;ashdlkjHSD hahahhaa I cant even get this out!!!!! it makes me so excited to know God more! and more and more and MORE. amazing. so amazing.

If I went into detail of all the ways God has been pouring out love on me this week, I would be writing for one hundred YEARS!!! but I wanted to share this LOVE, of Gods goodness to provide, in ACTION.

Last night I needed to study for my test this morning at school but my pain was at a 9 and I wanted to break down and cry... and I was getting so stressed out because I knew I didn't know even close to how much I needed to know... and it seemed impossible to study when I was hurting so much... nothing was going into my memory.. it was just in one ear and out the other. Then my sweet boyfriend reminded me "dont even think about it.. just believe and trust." Then He prayed for me right then and there and as SOON as he was done praying for my pain and my heart.. the pain went DOWN. from a 9 to a 7!!!!! We quickly grabbed my books and then CRAMMED for about three minutes till my pain went back up... i only went over a few things.. but I knew that God had me. I spent my morning praying that God would be with me and help me to remember what I needed to know to do well on the test.. but no matter what It was in His hands.

I had a lot of peace in my heart. As soon as I got to class I started talking to theses girls and we were going over a few of the things we didnt know.. and we were helping each other... a lot of the things we went over together I had completely forgotten about! Then the test started and immediately THE THINGS WE HAD JUST WENT OVER were on the test! God provided! all glory to HIM. Also on the test were every one of the VERY FEW things I had studied last night...God provided! all glory to HIM. I was so amazed at God for showing me exactly what I needed to know... I think I even said "thank You God" out loud a couple times in class. haha and THEN we were doing this one thing.. and I wasnt sure if I was doing it the right way or the wrong way... and I just prayed for God to remind me which way this thing went.. and right then the teacher said something that indicated that I was doing it RIGHT. my jaw dropped and I dropped my pencil on the ground!! I wanted to start crying!!!!! GOD PROVIDED!! ALL GLORY TO HIM!!!! I could feel His love pouring over me and taking over my heart! tears welled up in my eyes and I could not stop smiling!!! this test is something so small but the fact that God just showed me how much He loves me is HUGE!!

This is the God we have. HE IS ALWAYS GOOD. He ANSWERS PRAYERS. HE LOVES US. He loves us. He loves us He loves us... because of Jesus... because of mercy. wow God. I am blown away. You are everything..

You are everything.

Thank You.