My cup overflows

Every time I come to write a post I always have no idea where to even begin. There is so much I could say! Lord, please give me the words! 

In my last post I was so worried about how my wisdom teeth surgery would effect my head pain. The Lord was SO GRACIOUS!! It wasn't as bad as i thought it would be! BUT it was still pretty awful. I just remember trying so hard not to cry (because the recovery paper told me not to) as I was forcing mashed up food down my throat, but tears were just falling out of my eyes. So much discomfort and pain. And on top of that I looked like a chipmunk from the swelling hahahah!! But as I look back it was all over with so fast. So fast. Thank You God.

Life resumed as usual, nerve pain, dance teaching, Jesus.. every day with its own battles. But so full of Joy in Him. The dance recitals went amazing and I was so proud of all my students! So thankful for that season! 

Only a month or two after I had recovered from my surgery I started to notice all my lymph nodes were very swollen, especially under my arms, and all my energy was drained. Then a rash broke out on my legs so we decided to go in to see the doctor. Something we though would be so easy actually turned into stressful chaos. I ended up seeing four different doctors who all had a different diagnosis for me. I got some medicine for what they thought was a staph infection, and then a shot, and then blood tests, an X-ray of my chest, was told I had pneumonia , and that I was anemic... Haha it was just crazy and I was feeling so miserable from whatever it was. Had to get doctors notes for work and was bed ridden... again.  it turns out that it was just a bacterial infection caused from shaving... Haha I don't even have a comment for that.  Like..really?! Hahaha ugh it was so annoying it would go away and come back and go away and come back and just was relentless. The stress of it all made my head pain so much worse. I was just praying so so so much for my body to recover and get healthy. This has been such a trying year so far.. Just learning to trust God even in the craziness and randomness of these illnesses. And to press on in spite of them. Doing my best to take care of myself and praying for the strength to take on what He was asking me to. He Is so faithful and loving and worthy to be trusted!! Even through all the tears and fear, He was with me. He was holding my heart and comforting me every second. 

While this infection was still going on, and I was so weary of feeling so dead from sickness, I got strep throat... It was horrible. At a time when I thought it couldn't get any worse. In a week it cleared up and then two weeks later I got an infection from having strep called strep pharyngitis. It was way worse than the strep. Haha and then NOW, two weeks later, My doctor thinks that I have mono! I am so weak that its hard to even type this. and any normal task, like drinking tea or brushing my teeth or getting dressed, is ten times harder than it should be simply because my body just does not have the energy for it. i have been running a fever and breaking out in hives and just so so weak and in pain. 

I have kicked recovery mode into overdrive. I have gone completely off of gluten, dairy, sugar, soy, and caffeine (besides green tea) I have been taking a really expensive probiotic that I have to keep in the fridge (that my amazingly thoughtful boyfriend bought me), I have two cups of green tea a day with a tbs of coconut oil in each and then also a herbal tea with echinacea, every morning I take a multivitamin along with taking iron, magnesium, omega 3, primrose oil,  nerve support, and vitamin C, And I also drink 3tbs of noni juice. I juice fruit and veggies when I can but always get loads of them in me every day even when I can't, I make sure to get sunshine, exercise, and lots of rest, and just try to stay positive and joyful. Oh yeah and LOTS OF PRAYER... I need all the prayer I can get. It's hard to stay positive when I have no energy and I am in tons of pain.. But God is with me and He will be my strength!

yeah this is a true story guys.. These things really happen. Life is going to hit you so hard, and if your foundation is not The Lord, you will feel so helpless. He is the only thing that lasts through the storm. He is a foundation that you will be able to stand  firm upon. He will protect your heart and give you sanity in the chaos! I need Him so much more than I can even begin to comprehend. He is... Everything. Just, everything. 

For the past month my boyfriend and I have been preparing with a core group to plant a church In Irvine. This could not have come at a more perfect timing. Gods mercy and grace and love have been truly overwhelming!!! Even just through the little things He is SO FAITHFUL. I don't even know how to capture the beauty of this in words! He is so good so so good to His children and He pours out blessings to those who long to give Him glory! Really REALLY excited for what He is doing and so stoked to see HIS plans unfold!  

My cup overflows. Even through all this pain and sickness He is filling me up with Him and I am forever grateful for this LOVE!! So thankful for every person who is praying for me to feel better and for every encouraging word! I need it more than I can say!! Just remember that He's got you... No matter what the circumstance there is always LOVE and JOY to be found in Him, and that will be enough. <333